How we met was all the fun an chaos of my life and remembering her tell me that she only had eyes for me an i was not thinking of it. As well as when she asked If I was interested in anyone. I was clear as day said no.
Truth be told I was always interested but I didn't think it was tangible. I didn't think it would work. Not only that I barely knew her. But the more we talked. The more we connected. An the more we wanted
Within this month.. we went from friends who talked everyday an night. To sleeping together. To being together official. An now realizing. We've wanted this. Not just this.
We want a future together. We want a love that withstands everything. A love that endures. As we both have struggled to open up. Struggled to let one another in..
When we got together. When we finally let ourselves be together. We were inseparable. We were happy we were content. We were willing to go the extra mile. To be there. To love. To connect. To build on our trust an family.
I dont think there is a love greater than this. I don't think there is life that can be more passionate than this. Don't get me wrong...we've had some bumps. We've had some serious moments where I've doubted. But I've also chosen. I've made up my mind in so many ways to stay connected with her. An let her be connected to me.
I want to be her everything. I want our worlds to unite. I want our future to be so tangible. So reachable that by tomorrow it can happen.
We both have stuff. I have so much. But at the same time so does she. An reality is even those closest to me do not know me in ways that she does. Because I haven't been willing to share myself with anyone.. and I just want to share it with her. I want to be happy. I want the family. I want the dog. I want the home. I want the train tracks to cross paths an become one because we are capable. We've been thro too much to imagine it ever not surviving.
What I would give up. What I'd live for. What I'd die for. What I'd choose each an everyday.
How many love stories have this kind of passion. I know we will have difficult days. But alls I want. Is to be by her side as she's been building a wall around her heart. An I want to be able to break down that wall an build it up with me on the inside. Lol because I'm trustworthy. I'm strong enough to hold onto her an be what she needs in her moments of good bad ugly.
I want to celebrate our love. I want to be able to be happy the way she makes me happy an to show her that.
This has been the most beautiful experience of my life. That I miss laying next to her. An hearing her tell me she loves me
I miss so much in our moments. I miss so much in our lives. I don't want it to continue to be this way. I want to give her everything she needs
Was funny the other day. I had thought that on Dec 1. Was our first day of walking her home. An it was when she got discharged from hospital. An just being someone who was an is willing to be there.
I wanna cry because I'm missing our moments. I'm missing our passion. An everything she has going on I know I'm missing it. She's missing it an I just want to be able to snap her out of it. But I can't. My hope. My faith. My belief is that she will find her way back to me..
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