An the other part of it is that I'm working a few different jobs right now. So I couldn't take the day if I wanted too.
So I went to work an I was able to get So busy I wasn't even able to pay attention to the day. Now that my day of work is complete. My thoughts are about Karma.
Today I found a guy's wallet on the side of the road. An I helped him get it back. An on a complete other note one of my workers lost her jacket an two phones an instead of letting it be she went to search. An got it back.
The most unrealistic circumstances. It's always if it was anyone else. They'd have taken this or that.
But for me. I just couldn't steal from someone. I know what it's like to lose everything. I've had that happen an i just couldn't do that to someone..
An by choosing this. Good things happen as a result.
It's been a day. A day where I'm feeling the weight the physical weight of the day and altho it's sunny an beautiful i feel exhausted.
I'm grateful for how far I've come. I'm grateful for the life I'm given.
Someone brought a child to my office an I didn't have that giggly feeling that women or people get around children or babies. I didn't hate the little kid. But I also didn't wanna hold the baby or kiss the baby. It's not who I am. An now I'm a mom. But it wasn't planned. I always stood my ground of the world we live in.
There is so much chaos for any child an how to prepare them for all this chaos. I hope I do well but I'm also prepared to know I'm going to fail.
Hopefully my kid will learn from his mistakes or at least recognize right and wrong. An know what's good or bad. An that he survives the end of the world. But other than preparing him there isn't more I could do for him.
Idk. I just had to say. Thank you. Thank you for letting me live. Survive. An move forward. In all the darkness an pain there is light an today is a good day for karma.
