Trying to capture the good moments when life was good. An from out of nowhere something happened. I hardly know what to say or how to explain the feeling or what is actually happened.
Someone I considered a friend has turned into something else to me. Someone I see now that I wasn't really looking at before. And it's like a vampire tasting blood for the first time. I want, I yearn, I desire.
Old songs become new songs of love that I never felt before.
I hardly know how to keep myself together because I feel so dismantled in her presence. I feel so vulnerable an secure at the same time. Knowing for some odd reason if I ever fell apart she would be there to guard my heart. An I think what pushed me over the edge was she didn't just say she would stand by me. She also said she would be there for my kid. An that's a first time I've ever heard anyone say that about spending time with me. An for some odd reason it made me happy.
I dont want to write too many details. I just know I'm in a good spot right now. I'm grateful that for whatever reason that we found one another and it seems we are what we seem to need for tho time being.
I just want her to be happy. I want her to experience life in a beautiful way. I wish there was more I could say but because of it being so new to me. I'm still gathering myself.
I'm grateful in these dark days I've found a beautiful ray of light in the darkness. It's refreshing an reminder of moving forward the good things in life are still yet to come
I love you....if you ever read this know that I'm grateful you are here. An that you love me back.
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